Determination

If there was a theme for this week, determination was it. I woke up Monday morning determined, some might even say it edged over into stubborn. Determined to find some other way to get by than return to a cubicle, determined to keep pressing ahead with what my intuition says to do even if the numbers are not encouraging, and determined to let the fear go. That last one is an ongoing challenge – every time I think I’ve vanquished it, it crops up again.

All of this led to a weekly to-do list that was two notebook pages long instead of the usual one. No, it’s not all done yet but I think I’ll make 80% by tomorrow. I’ve tried things and found web pages I wouldn’t have explored otherwise and started the romance short story I was nervous about even trying; but there’s a magazine that pays well for that and so it’s worth a try. A part of me is afraid I might be good at it, which has more to do with other people’s opinions than my own. Even if the magazine doesn’t like it, it’s time to see if I can do it! Basically my determination has led me to be a lot more open to things that I was either hesitant about or doubted my ability. Many are likely not to pay off at all but I’m confident that the overall effort is my true path.

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