A few years back I left a job in a company that I had come to regard as running a kind of legal shell game.  My former manager just looked at me and said he was surprised that it took me that long.  That’s kind of how I’m feeling now – what the heck has taken me so long to get to this point?  Yes, things take longer than I ever anticipate; I’m starting to see a pattern of what I think will happen in a week will actually happen in a month with diligence. That’s definitely a part of it.  But there’s also something to that nagging feeling of not being enough – not knowledgeable enough, not skilled enough, etc.

Now that entrepreneurship is suddenly fashionable again and in the news I’m starting to see that I’ve  unconsciously tried to play both sides of that fence and consequently ended up on top of it.  Nobody can really teach you how to be an explorer.  By it’s very nature, it’s heading into new territory. But those are the people that I’d really like to hang out with and I’ve come to the point where I would far rather fail from trying than waiting for something to happen.  So… rather than waiting I’m going to order the essential supplies I need to make my line of sea glass jewelry.  I emphasize essential because as soon as I sit down with the supply catalog I find things that would be extremely useful but when I really evaluate are not critical right this minute.  I don’t know why I think I can’t place a second order if it turns out I can’t get along with out it.

While I thought I’d be ready to start advertising my bread baking enterprise this week, I’m not – but I am ready to start next week.  My business cards came in and I’ve got the paper to print fliers. I’ve run a test run of multiple batches of dough so I feel more confident and I’ve started calling to find out when real-estate agents will be in the office.  Nothing more to do except do it!

Now I have to head off into the unknown territory of setting up online purchasing for jewelry and photography. I’ve put it off because I don’t know where to start.  Anywhere will do – time to learn and explore and ask questions.

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